Thursday, January 20, 2011

Choices

Every morning you wake up and it starts... the choices for the day, hit sleep 1 more time or got for a walk, what to wear, what to eat, do you leave on time... its non stop all day.

I believe that no one can determine who we are without our permission. I am a 31 year old mom, wife, and insurance account manager. I suffer for S.A.D. and hate absolutely hate being cold... lately my choice has been to surrender. I am tired all the time, cranky is being polite and extremely sensative... yup, that time of the year again.

There are a lot of things in my life I do not love, but I can change, that's what's great about choice. I'm not happy weighing what I weigh... so today, I had a salad for lunch. I'm tired all the time, so I will go to bed at 10 instead of 11. I'm not happy at my job, so here we go, job prospecting... in the end I am the only one who can control my destiny.

Tomorrow will be a better day, at this moment today, my attitude will change from negative to hopeful, full of promise, and my glass is half full! wish me luck.

Friday, January 14, 2011

losses are never easy

Everyday I learn something new... I try to be the best parent I can, but you know... sometimes it doesn't matter how positive you are, sometimes things just happen.

My 10 year old lost his basketball game tonight... he had an alright game, tried his hardest, missed a couple of shots, and turnovers, but hey, its just a game. so I try to point out the positive... when I hear, I missed the shot, I replied, atleast you were there to take one... some of the other kids didn't even try for a rebound... which resulted in the usually attitude of whoa is me.

I think there is so much pressure on kids when in sports that they miss the one thing that makes someone truly great... the love of the game. you shouldnt play the game, just to play. you should love the game and enjoy it but most of all learn from it. you miss 100% of the shots you don't take.

tonight was a loss in parenting for me, but I am hoping one day, he'll look back and remember, it didn't matter win or lose, mom was there saying you did great.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

The New Year, Brings New Attitudes

We ended 2010 pretty well. Kids had a good Christmas. I was sucessful in meeting my business goals (YAY ME) and everyone at the office benefited from it. Teamwork really is rewarding.

I am hoping that 2011 will bring new attitudes for not only my family, but also for me professionally. Things have been crazy and disappointing at my employer for the past few years. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy here.... that being said, it's time to job search... every risk not taken is an opportunity missed...

The kids also need to adjust their attitudes for 2011. My lil princess needs to realize that its ok to say no thank you every once in a while... she doesn't always have to give up her snack, or toy, or play friend. My son, needs to realize that life is bigger than just him. Let's add some volunteering, helping out more at home, and a lot less temper tantrums. Really I thought we would be over crying fits at 10.

My husband and I need to work on the coparenting side of our marriage. I can give a little more, he can be just a little more consistant.

We will get there, but not unless we try. So my 2011 new years resolution is.... "To be better". I know, its not specific enough, but I can break it down into little goals through out the year... January's goal is to be better at business. Get the resume out and look for new opportunties. Work smarter not harder....