oh sweet temptation...

day 2 is so difficult... i did a little running... can't do long, it is so hard but I can do it.... Did some stretches, push ups, lunges, and that's all tonight.

traveling for work and trying to keep a healthy lifestyle is really a difficult balance. I miss my kids (been away for 2 nights) and went I tend to get sad... it's all chocolate. not this time. tonight it will be yoga...

sigh... wondering what day 3 will bring.

Eye of the beholder

Weight... image... height... I wonder when our civalization became so judgemental of image. Unfortnately I find myself at a cross roads. I weight in last week for our wellness challenge at work and found I have reached my heaviest weight ever.... I found myself questioning my worth because of a number represented on a scale....

This leads me to tonights post. I am wondering how my kids view their mommy... I want to be healthy for them, I want them to live a healthy lifestyle and am now realizing that my life choices are influencing their choices.

My husband says I'm beautiful... my babies say the same, but inside I don't feel pretty.... I do not enjoy having issues buttoning my pants or watching the "muffin top" overflowing above my pants... so tonight is the first night I am not longer just going to play victim and sit back and wait for health conditions to start appearing....

For my husband, for my kids, but most of all for me... tonight is the first night of change in my lifestyle... I am looking deep into my soul and praying for stregnth as I pass on the desert and decide to run while watching my favorite TV show... tonight is the first night I will start being the person I want my kids to be when they grow up...

So here's to tonight.