Every morning you wake up and it starts... the choices for the day, hit sleep 1 more time or got for a walk, what to wear, what to eat, do you leave on time... its non stop all day.
I believe that no one can determine who we are without our permission. I am a 31 year old mom, wife, and insurance account manager. I suffer for S.A.D. and hate absolutely hate being cold... lately my choice has been to surrender. I am tired all the time, cranky is being polite and extremely sensative... yup, that time of the year again.
There are a lot of things in my life I do not love, but I can change, that's what's great about choice. I'm not happy weighing what I weigh... so today, I had a salad for lunch. I'm tired all the time, so I will go to bed at 10 instead of 11. I'm not happy at my job, so here we go, job prospecting... in the end I am the only one who can control my destiny.
Tomorrow will be a better day, at this moment today, my attitude will change from negative to hopeful, full of promise, and my glass is half full! wish me luck.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
losses are never easy
Everyday I learn something new... I try to be the best parent I can, but you know... sometimes it doesn't matter how positive you are, sometimes things just happen.
My 10 year old lost his basketball game tonight... he had an alright game, tried his hardest, missed a couple of shots, and turnovers, but hey, its just a game. so I try to point out the positive... when I hear, I missed the shot, I replied, atleast you were there to take one... some of the other kids didn't even try for a rebound... which resulted in the usually attitude of whoa is me.
I think there is so much pressure on kids when in sports that they miss the one thing that makes someone truly great... the love of the game. you shouldnt play the game, just to play. you should love the game and enjoy it but most of all learn from it. you miss 100% of the shots you don't take.
tonight was a loss in parenting for me, but I am hoping one day, he'll look back and remember, it didn't matter win or lose, mom was there saying you did great.
My 10 year old lost his basketball game tonight... he had an alright game, tried his hardest, missed a couple of shots, and turnovers, but hey, its just a game. so I try to point out the positive... when I hear, I missed the shot, I replied, atleast you were there to take one... some of the other kids didn't even try for a rebound... which resulted in the usually attitude of whoa is me.
I think there is so much pressure on kids when in sports that they miss the one thing that makes someone truly great... the love of the game. you shouldnt play the game, just to play. you should love the game and enjoy it but most of all learn from it. you miss 100% of the shots you don't take.
tonight was a loss in parenting for me, but I am hoping one day, he'll look back and remember, it didn't matter win or lose, mom was there saying you did great.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
The New Year, Brings New Attitudes
We ended 2010 pretty well. Kids had a good Christmas. I was sucessful in meeting my business goals (YAY ME) and everyone at the office benefited from it. Teamwork really is rewarding.
I am hoping that 2011 will bring new attitudes for not only my family, but also for me professionally. Things have been crazy and disappointing at my employer for the past few years. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy here.... that being said, it's time to job search... every risk not taken is an opportunity missed...
The kids also need to adjust their attitudes for 2011. My lil princess needs to realize that its ok to say no thank you every once in a while... she doesn't always have to give up her snack, or toy, or play friend. My son, needs to realize that life is bigger than just him. Let's add some volunteering, helping out more at home, and a lot less temper tantrums. Really I thought we would be over crying fits at 10.
My husband and I need to work on the coparenting side of our marriage. I can give a little more, he can be just a little more consistant.
We will get there, but not unless we try. So my 2011 new years resolution is.... "To be better". I know, its not specific enough, but I can break it down into little goals through out the year... January's goal is to be better at business. Get the resume out and look for new opportunties. Work smarter not harder....
I am hoping that 2011 will bring new attitudes for not only my family, but also for me professionally. Things have been crazy and disappointing at my employer for the past few years. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy here.... that being said, it's time to job search... every risk not taken is an opportunity missed...
The kids also need to adjust their attitudes for 2011. My lil princess needs to realize that its ok to say no thank you every once in a while... she doesn't always have to give up her snack, or toy, or play friend. My son, needs to realize that life is bigger than just him. Let's add some volunteering, helping out more at home, and a lot less temper tantrums. Really I thought we would be over crying fits at 10.
My husband and I need to work on the coparenting side of our marriage. I can give a little more, he can be just a little more consistant.
We will get there, but not unless we try. So my 2011 new years resolution is.... "To be better". I know, its not specific enough, but I can break it down into little goals through out the year... January's goal is to be better at business. Get the resume out and look for new opportunties. Work smarter not harder....
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
oh sweet temptation...
day 2 is so difficult... i did a little running... can't do long, it is so hard but I can do it.... Did some stretches, push ups, lunges, and that's all tonight.
traveling for work and trying to keep a healthy lifestyle is really a difficult balance. I miss my kids (been away for 2 nights) and went I tend to get sad... it's all chocolate. not this time. tonight it will be yoga...
sigh... wondering what day 3 will bring.
traveling for work and trying to keep a healthy lifestyle is really a difficult balance. I miss my kids (been away for 2 nights) and went I tend to get sad... it's all chocolate. not this time. tonight it will be yoga...
sigh... wondering what day 3 will bring.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Eye of the beholder
Weight... image... height... I wonder when our civalization became so judgemental of image. Unfortnately I find myself at a cross roads. I weight in last week for our wellness challenge at work and found I have reached my heaviest weight ever.... I found myself questioning my worth because of a number represented on a scale....
This leads me to tonights post. I am wondering how my kids view their mommy... I want to be healthy for them, I want them to live a healthy lifestyle and am now realizing that my life choices are influencing their choices.
My husband says I'm beautiful... my babies say the same, but inside I don't feel pretty.... I do not enjoy having issues buttoning my pants or watching the "muffin top" overflowing above my pants... so tonight is the first night I am not longer just going to play victim and sit back and wait for health conditions to start appearing....
For my husband, for my kids, but most of all for me... tonight is the first night of change in my lifestyle... I am looking deep into my soul and praying for stregnth as I pass on the desert and decide to run while watching my favorite TV show... tonight is the first night I will start being the person I want my kids to be when they grow up...
So here's to tonight.
This leads me to tonights post. I am wondering how my kids view their mommy... I want to be healthy for them, I want them to live a healthy lifestyle and am now realizing that my life choices are influencing their choices.
My husband says I'm beautiful... my babies say the same, but inside I don't feel pretty.... I do not enjoy having issues buttoning my pants or watching the "muffin top" overflowing above my pants... so tonight is the first night I am not longer just going to play victim and sit back and wait for health conditions to start appearing....
For my husband, for my kids, but most of all for me... tonight is the first night of change in my lifestyle... I am looking deep into my soul and praying for stregnth as I pass on the desert and decide to run while watching my favorite TV show... tonight is the first night I will start being the person I want my kids to be when they grow up...
So here's to tonight.
Friday, September 10, 2010
Independence
Well, I watched my 10 year old enter into 5th grade on Tuesday... excited and happy. He was always so easy getting on the bus and going with his friends.
Today I watched my 5 year old go onto the bus entering into Kindergarten. Where did the time go? Seems like just yesterday I was trying to figure out how to raise this little angel and today I watched her smile at me as the bus approached, waved and off she went. No hesitation, No look back, nothing.
Some of my friends say this means I did a good job with her teaching her independence. Honestly, it breaks my heart... don't get me wrong. I don't want the child who hides her face and cries when mommy isn't there... but I would've really liked just a glimpse back.... or atleast a look out the window with a wave. sigh..... I know as she grows her needs will change and my husband and I will always be there to help in absolutely way.
So today, I am reminded that again, it isn't about us at all... its all about her spreading her wings and taking the 1st steps into the next stage of her life....
Today I watched my 5 year old go onto the bus entering into Kindergarten. Where did the time go? Seems like just yesterday I was trying to figure out how to raise this little angel and today I watched her smile at me as the bus approached, waved and off she went. No hesitation, No look back, nothing.
Some of my friends say this means I did a good job with her teaching her independence. Honestly, it breaks my heart... don't get me wrong. I don't want the child who hides her face and cries when mommy isn't there... but I would've really liked just a glimpse back.... or atleast a look out the window with a wave. sigh..... I know as she grows her needs will change and my husband and I will always be there to help in absolutely way.
So today, I am reminded that again, it isn't about us at all... its all about her spreading her wings and taking the 1st steps into the next stage of her life....
Friday, July 23, 2010
The Frugal Family
Teaching kids about money definately has it challenges. It is not for everyone, and I will be the 1st to say sometimes, it's not easy.
Yesterday in the mail I received my free silly bandz for the last blog post I posted... YAY!!! The kids were amazed that Silly Bandz would mail me something free. I laughed and as they wanted to "trade" with me... I smiled and said, I think I'll hold these for now.
They also have witnessed samples of deodorant, toilet paper, lotion, and even perfume make its way into my mail box over the past few weeks. They think its fun that Mommy gets so excited over mail!
My oldest decided he wanted a pair of Michael Jordan shoes... one of his friends has them and apparently this is the new in thing to have... we searched the sites and the pair he wanted were $130. For a 10 year old... ABSOLUTELY NOT! He rebuttled that he would just use his birthday money... well, instead of just giving it, we used this as a life lesson. We went online and googled for coupons. We found one for 20% off... great! This got the price down to $104. Still too much. I then found the same exact pair on Kids footlocker for $90... better.. but still.... He needed new shoes so my husband and I gave him $40 making his cost $50 + shipping. Then I scored a free shipping code... even better. Final cost for the $130 shoes? $82. His cost... $42. He was thrilled.
With the rest of his money he bought 6 lego sets, 2 DS games and a new DS... all of which he would've wasted on an extremely expensive pair of NIKE shoes... uhg.
Lesson learned... a penny pinched is a penny saved for a rainy day.
Yesterday in the mail I received my free silly bandz for the last blog post I posted... YAY!!! The kids were amazed that Silly Bandz would mail me something free. I laughed and as they wanted to "trade" with me... I smiled and said, I think I'll hold these for now.
They also have witnessed samples of deodorant, toilet paper, lotion, and even perfume make its way into my mail box over the past few weeks. They think its fun that Mommy gets so excited over mail!
My oldest decided he wanted a pair of Michael Jordan shoes... one of his friends has them and apparently this is the new in thing to have... we searched the sites and the pair he wanted were $130. For a 10 year old... ABSOLUTELY NOT! He rebuttled that he would just use his birthday money... well, instead of just giving it, we used this as a life lesson. We went online and googled for coupons. We found one for 20% off... great! This got the price down to $104. Still too much. I then found the same exact pair on Kids footlocker for $90... better.. but still.... He needed new shoes so my husband and I gave him $40 making his cost $50 + shipping. Then I scored a free shipping code... even better. Final cost for the $130 shoes? $82. His cost... $42. He was thrilled.
With the rest of his money he bought 6 lego sets, 2 DS games and a new DS... all of which he would've wasted on an extremely expensive pair of NIKE shoes... uhg.
Lesson learned... a penny pinched is a penny saved for a rainy day.
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